Ascension

Sometimes, it feels like this world is just for me. My last post, about my self-doubt partially as the result of not landing that job from almost a year ago, will serve as a nice counterpoint to this post.

The future is bright. I’m not the most uplifted I’ve ever been, but I’m far above the depths I sunk to when I was both sleep deprived and unable to sleep. But anything I say or do at 4 in the morning has been known to be… emotionally out of whack.

In two days on Tuesday I interview for a company in Boston. Not only is it much closer than last year’s California event, but the company itself is a better fit for me, I feel. I’m excited thinking about landing this, but at the same time I still do have some self-doubt over my skills. In the end, no matter how the interview goes it’s up to them whether I’m a good fit.

In addition, I’ve finally decided a course of action for my web dev/game dev conundrum. For now, I’ll focus on web development as a career. I’m better at it right now than game development, and the job market is stronger (particularly for tech startups, which I’ve been interested in for years.) This isn’t purely financially-motivated, however. I’m actually almost as passionate about web development as game development. That’s why there was a conflict of interests in the first place — I was conflicted over which interest to pursue!

The plan is to use my skills in web development, a more financially viable industry, to fund my future game development ventures. When will I pursue games? Who knows. Depends on a lot of things. Probably around when I’m 30, I think.

I’m incredibly lucky and blessed that I have two viable career paths. Well that’s if the entire economy/internet/country doesn’t collapse first. But I’ll leave tomorrow to worry for itself, and just worry for today. Err, Tuesday.
-Andrew