Hour of Darkness

When I find myself in times of trouble, Mother Mary comes to me. Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

And in my hour of darkness, she is standing right in front of me. Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

Things haven’t been great for most people I know lately, including myself. At home, there is constant fighting, and online, I know someone who is going through an even worse time. Money is tight, and constantly an issue.

It can be easy to lose hope in times of adversity. Winter particularly lends itself to increasing anxiety — the days are short, and you’re forced to stay inside most of the time. Sometimes, it’s easy to feel like giving up.

It’s overplayed today, but the Thomas Fuller’s iconic phrase still holds true: “It is always darkest just before the Day dawneth.” If I wasn’t grounding myself with faith and my hope for this summer, I may have easily given into despair by now.

Why is this summer so important to me? It is because I plan to move out in early August. Out of my parent’s house, and out of my state. I have known only this home for the past 18 years, after we moved in when I was a year old. I don’t think I will experience more of a change in my entire life after this. Maybe marriage and children, but my niece has broken me into the latter already. Moving out and beginning a career is the most alien idea I can think of doing.

If a person’s natural life can be thought of as a trilogy, then my first installment is coming rapidly to a close. My childhood and adolescence will soon be complete. To put it one way, this year is the beginning of the end of the beginning.

So even if it’s dark now, don’t let your heart be swayed, or your resolve shaken. There is always a hope in times of desolation, and always strength in misery.
-Andrew

And when the night is cloudy, there is still a light that shines on me.

Shine until tomorrow, let it be.