Well, the summer is ending, whether I like it nor not.
I’m glad I was able to accomplish all my goals with my “Summer of Andrew.” I wish August had been more fulfilling, and I would have liked to go to the beach a third time, but you take what you can get.
I think though that I can look back with happiness at this summer. I’ll probably be even more antsy next year for summer to start, but then again, maybe I won’t. What usually happens to me is that if I have some big event I dread before a vacation or something good, I still dread the big event drawing closer. Before, this meant exams. Next year, it means moving to California.
A lot of things could change between then and now; maybe I find a good internship in Connecticut or New York. But even still, I’m probably going to move out next summer. And I was finally able to tell all these plans to my mom earlier tonight. It went as expected, I could tell she was sad. Even more so when I said I could be in Cali permanently.
Truthfully, I would love nothing more than to stay in Connecticut with my family (maybe not in the same house as them) and work on games. But I won’t get the exposure I need, I won’t be able to build the network I want, and I won’t find the talent required for a good game studio (eventually… think 10 years.)
Well, whatever happens, I’m sure it will work out. And I’m sure of that because of this blog, actually. It proves how introspective, retrospective, and careful I am. This blog wouldn’t be five years old otherwise, with entries regularly passing 500 words a piece, all about my thoughts at the time – not what’s happening around me, not what my friends are doing or what’s going on in the world, but about my thinking.
I also have my faith as backing. Actually, it’s my primary backing. Praying each night, it’s very apparent the little details that very well could and should have gone wrong, but didn’t. I frequently encounter this when coding, that there’s almost always some “magic bullet” to the major problem I’m currently puzzled over. I just have to look hard enough for it. There’s no “magic bullet” to your life, though. No single decision is going to determine everything. But little by little, everything adds up. Through diligence and faith, I know I can accomplish my goals. But along the way, sometimes I’ll realize the goals I wanted before aren’t what’s best now.
I pray for wisdom.